The success begins

The success begins Bodybuilding involvement in my life has been one of the best decisions I ever made. In my early childhood was marked by the trauma of sexual abuse. Although these memories were repressed until a few years, I have almost my whole life suffering from classic symptoms of abuse: low self-esteem, poor self-esteem, phobias, obsessive-compulsive behavior, and depression. The cycle of abuse continued with my youth, when at the age of 16 years, I am in an eight-year abusive marriage. I endured daily emotional and verbal abuse, threats and intimidation. My self-esteem and continue to decline in 24 years, when I finally divorced my husband, I was a physical and mental wrecks. I had never practiced a healthy lifestyle, not self-esteem, and stress in my life long the abuse has had its toll. In 24 years I weigh 97 pounds, was a day with chest pain, heart - heart palpitations, panic attacks and insomnia. I suffered from TMJ syndrome by stress. My doctor advised me to exercise before my condition deteriorated. I reluctantly started aerobics and then a slight resistance training. I immediately noticed that the physical and mental benefits of exercise. At this point in my life, muscle and muscle-building was not my goal. I needed an outlet for stress and an increased level of energy. Non E '? T time for me to have an interest in nutrition, building muscle, and possibly in the competition. My self-esteem and general outlook on life, as I have my workouts. In January 1998, at the age of 34, I have my love for the sport one step further. I took a professional bodybuilder to train me for the next Classic Natural Bodybuilding Belding in Belding, Michigan. Due to abuse I suffered, I have always had a bad self-image. Although I never had a weight problem, I have always been very embarrassed by my body. Competing is something that I never thought that I could do because of this blockade. At a petite 5? 2 ', are not genetically endowed with good muscle development. But I trained hard, much has been for my diet, and did exactly what I said to myself, to do so. I felt very anxious on 11 April 1998, when step to provide a single example. Most of my competitors better training muscle and was much more than me. (In general, have had my confidence right window.) However, my routine is nice and makes my weren? t bad! The public was very positive, and my confidence grew. I won a medal on this day. In my head, I have everything I've done, which is to be done. I gained valuable experience and many of my fears and hang-ups have been conquered. I never heard such a trust, satisfaction and pride for me. I have a long way over the years and has achieved many goals, but that competition has changed my life dramatically. It 'difficult to express in words, but I have heard the same from that day. Over the years my family and my friends have noticed the positive changes in my health, attitude and self confidence. I have taken further steps to improve in these areas and the healing of my past. However, bodybuilding is one thing, the biggest difference in my life. He has so much difference that I am a certified personal trainer. Through my new company, the Trinity Coaching Services, now combining fitness training and personal development coaching to help others reap the benefits of a healthy lifestyle. Continue to compete once or twice a year, simply because it is of fundamental importance for my self-esteem. ? 2000 By Monique Rider